BLOODY HELL BLOODY HELL BLOODY HELL

..no mood to do anything at all right now..
still feeling pissed..n no i dont need the toilet..
don wanna be lame but i think i juz did anyways..
i wanna vent my anger..
i can contain whatever bloody hell there is to my life to MYSELF

YET i'm not someone who can contain EVERYTHING inside myself..
now there's a difference when i keep to myself for a day or so..
compared to when i keep to myself from you for a day or so..

EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING CAN BE TOLERATED EXCEPT WHEN:

1. i've decided that YOU've just asked/picked a fight from me cos of whatever freaking reason u have

2. i've picked a fight with you cos you're being
-UNBELIEVABLY UNREASONABLE
-UNBELIEVABLY ILLOGICAL
-UNBELIEVABLY IRRITATING
-UN_WHATEVERNESS THAT BUGS ME

i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
i wanna flood the whole of spore with my vulgarities
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and after i do that, maybe i'll opt to go to japan n listen to that beautiful foreign lingo..
best if someone like tatsuya picks me up like a puppy/kitty n brings me home~
*SNUGGLES*


i don even know if what i typed made any sense..
if it does, good for u..
if it doesnt..good for u too..
BLAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
i wanna move out of my house!!!!!!
like duh..something happened in the house that i'm in now..
nothing to do with sch..
sch stuff rarely gets to me..
i think i need a psychiatrist
or whatever that's powerful enough to brainwash me entirely
cos apparently, those whatever motivational talks/council-ing thingy ..whatever it's called
THEY DON WORK FOR ME
trust me..
cos i'm me, that's why i know they don work on me..
maybe it's cos i don believe..
well..at least i don believe EASILY..
my mind does a lot of shuffling..
so unless u're one of my cells up there, don ask me what i mean..

so maybe i could try getting into an accident and waking up as a whole new person
AH-HA..yea..if only


ROAR..time to GET MARRIED RICH!!
then GET DIVORCED!!
then GET THE HOUSE!!
YESH I ONLY WANT THE HOUSE..
U CAN KEEP ALL YOUR MONEY/INHERITANCE THINGY TO YOURSELF..
I DON WANT THEM..
i just want the HOUSE!!!

=X okay fine..i'm being damn un-whateverness now..
wait till i've cleared up everything by myself..
most likely i'll be doing a lot of thinking today..
so i've already shut off my hp..since it's not charged anyway..
anyone wanna reach me, please wait for something called..
'when she wakes up tmr ......'
yep

i'm gonna watch my dramaS my CONCERTS..MY TATSUYA~~~~~
the only things that cant piss u...the things on the screen..
yep..
esp on my laptop screen..


sorry helen..i know i've said i'd go out tmr..but seriously i'm in no mood to whateverness..
will help u inform joanna about tmr..if possible don call me tmr to go out again..
i'd juz say no..which will piss u even more..
but i don wanna give a damn bout whoever's feeling what now..cold-blooded..yesh i am..
so please..juz ignore me..let me wither for a day or so..we'll meet again some other time..
i'll make it up to you
sorry sorry n sorry