got into a tiff with my mum

she asked me how come i decided to bike down to the station today..
so i told her the sun was big..
n she asked..were u late?
so i answered ya..that's one of the reason also..
then she started nagging saying that she even called me at 9am when she left for work n said that my eyes even opened to respond to her..but i don rmb her calling me or anything..much less me opening my eyes in respond?! maybe it was my subconsiousness..HA!thanks a lot if it's u dear subconsiousness _|_
n she also said that class that starts at 10 i also can late..say i nv set alarm..BUT I DID!! THREE SOMEMORE!! but they didnt work on me today..shit if i knew, i'd ask my sis to kick me up instead, like ytd %?*&#%@#$!
then it became like ''u don even go to attend class how are the teachers gonna help u''
so i told her i still went in the end even thou i know that when i reach class would have long ended..n i went to find my friend to get/copy notes from her..
plus e teacher know i couldnt make it for class alr since i woke up late n live so far..[cos cheryltold her] n i also saw the teacher afterall when i was dealing with the notes from cheryl..so she even ask if there was any problem n whether i have the rev worksht..i had it alr so i asked her bout some stuff n she say yea..that's juz bout it..
then i stayed in sch with cheryl to read thru the aimm answers n even did some mgen clarification..
then she was like tmr need to go to sch? i said no need alr..
n she said 1 rev class only meh? i thought u got 3 papers?
i was like there was alr 2 class ytd what..

then from there onwards..
MOOD FOR TONIGHT = SILENT

i was thinking to myself..at least i went to sch to get the notes personally in the end..
at least i wasnt slacking ard at home..at least i got SOMETHIN done even thou not EVERYTHING..
WHAT THE FUCK DO U WANT FROM ME MAN

if i lie to u saying i went to sch as per normal..when kmm or someone tell u i was absent instead, u'd say i lied..then when i decided to tell u i was late n didnt get to attend class u juz blast off at me..u don even bother saying good at least u asked your friend to find out what they had for class..n i thought u were my mum..i thought u'd understand..so for once i told u bout sch..instead of juz brushing off saying ''i juz feel like biking today'' n end the conv with u..what the hell did i get from that..at least ms rozi was glad that i still went to sch to do the notes from cheryl..u make me think that others treat me better than u do..at least they appreciate the effort i made

when i thought we could savage the situation..u make me drop into a bottomless pit..all i could do was stop talking to u by shutting myself in the bath n taking a long shower to cool myself..
then after that u juz act as if nothing happened n ask me to go do my own work..
every conv we have are always left hanging..there's no proper ending..even stories n movies say THE END to the audience..but up till now..there's nothing...nothing was solved..i cant deny it but i seriously don know how to communicate now..

what do u want from me..i'm not as good..so?

~life is but a walking shadow~