one thing that makes me pissed staying with others
situation:
6pm+ when i got home,
i put a packet of ribena[however u spell it] into the fridge for myself.
11pm i went to shower.
12 i came out of my lovely long shower to get my mood down in the dumps.
THE FUCKING PACK OF RIBENA KANNA KOPED BY MY BLOODY SIS

the first thing i wanted to do was to throw my damn towel on the floor throw that bloody half pack gone ribena into the trash n freaking dump her freaking stack of notes on the floor n go to the room n say TMD wo fang na bao ribena jai bing chu shi gei ni he de meh? zhi ji yao he bu hui na ni ji zhi de yi bao ah? mei chi seng zhui hou yi bao wo xiang he de shi hou dou gen wo qiang..
FUCKING IRRITATED RIGHT NOW
wth la..i've been getting nothing but irritating nights recently

1. i must clarify that i AM afterall not a good tempered person thank u very much.
2. i act how i act cos i don wanna make damn scene..so i juz get irritated at myself n juz put on a moody face..but freaking hell i'll get scolded for putting on ''such a face'' like ''ren jia de zhui ni ah?''
PRECISELY..bu shi de zhui wo de hua, ni yi wei wo hui guan ni gan shen me pi ah? qu shi ba ni!
3. if u need to know..i AM vulgar when using english but when i get really mad, i use chinese..n it's no better..thou it MIGHT not be as vulgar, the content is even stronger like WBD
so if u actually hear me scolding out in eng, most probably it'll sound weird cos i'm translating chinese-eng when i'm really mad.

u might be wondering why did i get mad.
i seriously am the type who'd make a din cos of something so small like a pack of ribena.
wanna know why? ppl always scold me..say AIYA chai yi bao shui er yi, pa yi hou mei de he meh?
i'm like bloody shut n fuck off man.
cos i don really drink the cold drinks that are bought home unless i really feel hot n stuff..even outside, i'd rarely get those cold/frizzy drinks..i don really find them 'nice' so i wouldnt bother drinking them all in a rush when u buy back a carton. but the thing is..when everyone esp my bro/sis are being greedily drinking up like a lot of the packs in a short amt of time, i only get to drink one out of every carton there is..sometimes none..like there isnt my share at all..
it's not fair ok..yea it's juz a drink but it's fucking not fair to me..

i alr say i don really like it unless there's an urge or smt..
so when i feel the urge i'll get the drink n place it in the fridge..
THE NEXT FUCKING THING THAT WILL HAPPEN IS ALWAYS LIKE TODAY
i'm so damn frustrated ok
n the thing is..PRECISELY it's juz a damn small issue but it ALWAYS HAPPENS
n when i make a din or smt..i get scolded for being selfish..
like wth man..esp with my parents..they don know anything..they only say..they drink then they drink lor u so greedy for what
assholes man..find out in the first place that i'm NOT THE FUCKING GREEDY ONE OK GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT
that's my point..it IS SUCH A SMALL THING but what they say n know of it is so little that i don believe i live in the same hse as them.
they don know who's the greedy one n who always doesnt get what she wants
n SHIT MAN i'm feeling so damn pissed now..arrrrrghhhhhhh!!

have u ever thought that if no one keeps doing that to my stuff[food/drinks]
i wouldnt even have to get pissed?

n i don like apologies cos apparently what i know from apologies are juz insults n rudeness..esp the way they say it..AIYA SORRI LA~
they always get what they want it's juz so unfair..
n my parents always say..i buy this blahblahblah u all better share ah
YEA RIGHT FUCKING SHARE YOUR HEAD
even when they try to be nice by offering the leftovers, after making that damn mistake over n over again..
THEY JUST NV LEARN..they nv know why i get pissed..
i'd juz blow it off n say NI ZHI JI HE LA! HE LE CHAI GEN WO SHUO ''SORRY'' YOU GE PI AH
then they juz say i attitude..HELLO AH! U THINK IF U NV TOUCH 'MY STUFF' I"LL DO THIS? U THINK I EAT TOO FULL NOTHING TO DO IZZIT?
of all the snacks or whatever that u buy for us to share, i get the least/NONE

cos apparently they'll finish everything like it's expiring alr..
n when i feel like munching or anything n tries to find the food, nothing's left..n sometimes it's stuff from when ppl go overseas n buy for us to share de..but come on la..everytime i rmb there's such a thing i can eat n i go off to find it, i'll only get pissed cos they don leave u your share at all.

that's why they say i'm petty when i name the snacks/foods/drinks that i bring home..
HELLO AH..even things like my friend buys me a peice of cake n i put it one side to enjoy it later, the ending can also get to like today lor..
u think i wanna trust u guys that u'll leave what's that not yours alone?
n the issue is juz plainly FOOD u know..
they ate my cake that my friend knew i'd like to eat, n they juz end up saying..''eat a lil of your stuff only will die ah? not like u earn your own allowance alr..got the capability u go live on your own outside la..this kind of small things also like mad dog like that raise your voice''
THEY NV KNOW WHAT'S WRONG
precisely cos it;s MY friend who got it from me that i appreciate it..
n it's not like they asked who the cake belongs to even when i'm at home in my room..
i'll only end up noticing when i finish doing my things that they've alr taken up my stuff.
i don like sharing ok..esp when u don even ask if it belongs to me
i juz feel that nothing is fair..
my friends at least appretiate that i helped them out so they got me something to thank or reward me for my good work n all u guys ever do is take away my reward before i get to taste the goodness of it..tell me how worse can this get

even when i wanna watch tv
i nv watch tv nowadays do u guys wanna know why?
i'm totally sick of everything other than cos i hav gt work
cos apparently my bro 'owns' the tv..
everytime he can watch what he wants..n it's always cartoon..
n its the kind whereby he's alr in sec sch yet still watches baby shows or those lame ass shows..
i simply don get it..i mean like yea u wanna enjoy yourself but cant u find something more relevant?other than cartoon that talk in baby languages or with lame illogical shit?
then when i wanna get the remote he'll juz snatch it back n say WHY?
i say i wanna watch something else he'll juz go CANNOT LEH I WATCHING
i'll explode right away man..cos everyday i get home way later than him..n he's been watchin uesless stuff the whole day..esp hols..

then when i wanna watch. i'll tell him i wanna watch at what time got whatever show, he says he havnt watch finish, i'll be like U watch from what time to what time alr still not enough? let others watch a while will die ah?
then he'll be like all smug n irritatingly saying YEA WILL DIE
then my mum finds us arguing n she'll juz say why? wanna fight then off the tv don waste electricity..i'm like what? he watch the whole day alr i wanna watch also cannot ah?
then sometimes mum wouldnt care n say best if the tv spoil..don need to watch then don need to fight also..then my damn bro gets even smug n stick his bloody tongue out..

i tell u..I SNAP! fucking asking for a fight..yea i'm short fused..so i juz fucking get physical
n he cries to mummy saying i bullied him when he actually fought back as well
then good lor..i get the scolding n is given the expression that i as a sister donno how to SHARE with my siblings..
HELLO AGAIN AH..U TELL ME WHO DOESNT WANNA SHARE not me ok
i ask first but every single time u wanna win..n u make me lose my temper somemore.
so nowadays..i don even wanna do anything that someone else is doing..
meaning if they watch tv i use my com..
when they wanna go out n eat or shop i bring my mp3 n live in my own world

when i'd eventually get my share i don think i'll be in this house anymore
no one takes notice of what happens..they only know what they want..
n they say i'm selfish..
have they ever thought it's cos of what they do that makes me wanna make things clear that what's mine is mine?
fucking great night